Another day another, err…well something witty no doubt
Today found me running errands and such, which is a nice change of pace. I enjoy being busy, it helps mute my mind, which for me is a good thing. I have this knack for over thinking and over analyzing, which for a philosopher might be a good thing. At any rate I digress, so I decided to take time and get some stuff down on paper. Which lead to a sort of epiphany, well actually no it was an epiphany. So let me set the scene for you– Camera pans in to Mikey sitting on a bench outside, he is smiling and happily chiseling away at his keyboard.
So I started writing and it was a new story, not a continuation, which it should have been you know so I could actually finish something. Oh, like that screen play that is going to hit it big and then allow me to move to Hollywood with all the other lushes and piss my millions away in a penthouse. But alas it wasn’t, nope new story. So I think that I subconsciously jump around from project to project. I think its the same reason behind always eating at a table with an additional chair, just in case someone stops by. In my mind I think I am afraid of finishing a story because then I can’t alter it when something really great comes along. I hope that by coming to this realization I will be able to over come it. I will finish that screen play, that prose, that book of short stories and even that poem I never wrote. Perhaps I will even finish the multitude of concept albums that I haven’t started (but if you have the concept then hasn’t it sort of started?). I feel like I am finally starting to come into my own as a… well a person I guess, a man, a writer, a musician, a geek even. For so long my life has been in neutral, could it be that the only shift I needed was waking up to a new day? Well I don’t know but I do know that I am starting to admit things to myself which is allowing me to assess the situation and work on a solution. For example I wrote this post and further more it’s the complete thought I set out to write, guess you have to start somewhere. Well, until we meet again.
-mikey